recenty e past weeks havnt been good for me.. actaully b4 CHinese New Year.. started all tis prob.... i dono where to move on... or wat i shld do... use to be a happy little ger bt nw become a useless n meaningless ger... i have lost control of a lot of things... y is my life getting worst... n y cant i live a noraml life.... jus a simple n lifestlye.. i don ask to be rich.. i don ask for a good living.. bt jus a simple n pain lifestlye.. y GOD hasnt show his way...i don mind to suffer for family n frens bt how long more do i need to do tis to lead back a normal life????

i have no one to run to ... accept myself... haiz... FRENS???? hahahhahahahahahahahhahaha... i really wake up my mind..... frens are only meant for FUN... when u are down in trouble.. DO U TINK THEY HELP??? NO!!! they pretend to listen bt cant do anything... or i shld sae run far far away..well... i been thru such thngs... n noe it... n i dono whether i stil have a family.. a shelter.. a sch... a job to move on.... e.thing may jus drop from 100 to 0.....

e past few days have been going drinking.... n nearly lost my voice.... dono y..got no job.. cant find one... nth to do.. scare of gettng depression again.. so went drinking wit frens....well.. i noe e prob wont slove.. bt @ least i wont stess every single sec... i have a free mind for few hours.. ..... gt nth nmuch to sae.... tired... really tired....