Cant believe tat my actual bd was celebrated like tis.. went for movies after work.. den drop by billybombers to see tiansong.. .. after tat went clubbing.. @ MOS.. had a great time there... with e dance n drinks.. and ppl who i dono keep coming to tok to mi.. well tis is hw i actually celebrated my bd.. nev in my life i tht of that.. haha

den e next day. 15/3/08.. in the morn went out to the zoo... had a great time wit ah han, kelivn, and andy... took some pics.. bt a bit disappointed cos nt many animals are awake or more to see.. bt quite like e elephant show.. was funny n nice. thereafter, alex came to pick mi up @ amk and send home to change for my date... den send mi to orchard.. haha sooo sweet of him..

den met up wit kevin for movie.. STEP UP 2.. it was very nice and woooooooo e dance is power sia.. we even took a video of it. den after tat we stroll down to boders for BK.. after which he left to meet his frens.. n i went Luna to find nichols.. i cant believe it his mom n his mom frens keep wanting to see mi... i so pai seh.. bt went down.. had drinks n dance.. den after tat went home..

i dono when i startd to like someone... bt it seems tat he start to care for mi.. and say tat even no one be there for me.. he will.. haha.. i dono whether i stil can believe any guys anymore.. or even anyone... i really give up hope.. give up fate.. give up life... really lost of words or ways to cont wit life...

i learn to accept fate is not in ur hands... it is plan already and ppl need to go thru in a diff ways to live in tis world... we can only either avoid or work for it... n theres no 2nd chance to turn back... wats done is done... e only way is either not to repeat or improve.. haiz.. bt i am stuck somewhere... i try my best bt den i fail .... i reallly lousy... keke..

after all tis things have been happening... i come up wit my plans or wat move i wan to make..... i will be ant Juliet... n no longer e one which my frens will noe... since i live so miserable.. den i shld change to live happily... bt i will hurt others terribly.... once i decided to make tis move.. i cant turn back.. so shld i??? or shld i not???

Over e week had my bd celebration at the chalet... hmm although i am happy that it was alrite bt was disappointed tat most of my gd buddies are able to come due to some reasons bah.. well... at least i noe who cares and who dons...

on fri, went dbl o with jefferene, fida, diyana, andy, kelvi & alex... had drinks and dance.. thereafter, went for supper @ river vally den head back to chalet ard 5plus am for zzZzz.. keke.. den the next day was e bbq... was raining in e noon and scare it turn out bad.. bt lucky it was nt raining after tat.. had the gathering wit my frens and so... and nite e whole bunch came down after work.. keke.. had some fun there... and slept the whole day on sun.. was super tired...

tis past days haven been working non stop... mayb i jus don wan to anyhw think and also to make myself earn more $$$.. really tired as e.day work 19hrs... 2 hrs travel.. 1hr bath.. e rest is for zzzz... my body finally cannot take it.. n gt in contact wit virus.. n have high fever.. vomit.. cold. cough... all in one come 2gather... bt stil have to work lah... tats life... haiz... nth much to update...

celebrated my bd last week end.. hmmm was really in e mood for e celebration cos alot of things have happen... and i jus wan to thank for those who came and help me to prepare e.ting... and for those who promise to come and didnt come last min... i also wan to thank them... from tis pt i noe who really are my frens....

although it wasnt really tat fun which i hope to expect.. bt i stil enjoy those company and e presents i collected... all of it was great n nice.. esp my mei mei n yi long present... it was really beautiful and i will keep it properly..

i finally feel that when i am feeling down.. tats no one i can turn up to... mayb tats my fate n life bah... slowly i learn to accept that i shld cont to live in my own world and be left alone... i do not need any frens... any lover.. any help.. i feel like going back to my old footsteps.. mayb tat way i will be much happier and better... haiz... bt i will always be there for my frens when they need me...cos my heart for them is always pure. :)

my mood isnt stable any and i keep thinking abt e prob that i created... although nichlos and marcus ask mi to relax and stop thinking as the things have been done and i cant do anything. jus hope e.thing goes smoothly. wait till e result is out den decide... haha i cant believe they are e ones to be there for mi.... n i noe marcus will always do that.. he have been a listening ear for nearly 10yrs.. thanks dear.. i really touch...

my work was soo affected by my mood that i left work early yest to go home n rest... i jus feel like being alone... and i even give up working tdy cos i really low moral.. and wanted to find someone to tok.. bt den e.one seems to be busy here n there... suddenly i realise somethings.. friends are really company for fun and laughter.. when u really need them... no one is to be reach.. suai le... the title i already own -"Leave Me aLone" .. ..... .....

Exam are jus over.. haiz.. i am very disappointed wit myself. feeling like slapping n kicking myself.. i didnt do well for e last paper.. i read the question wrongly and wrote other things... y??? y??? wat happen to mi??? i burst into tears when i came out of e classroom... dono y cant hold back my tears.. i cant beleive e 1st person i call was nichlos to throw out my sorrow... he also gt a shock of his life...after some chat.. i cool down.. but den things didnt work well for long...

i didnt went out wit my classmates cos i was feeling super down.. don have the mood.. so i went home.. cope myself in my room the whole nite... n nw i cant sleep.. although is stil 3hrs to go b4 i go to work.. bt my mood is stil very upset...i dono y i screw up e paper.. is e last paper n is nt easy to score and i destory it... been crying e whole nite... haiz... zzzzzzzzz

tdy gt back e course work for most of e subj... hmmm was very satisfy wit some and disappointed in some too... bt overall was quite with some grades as my effort wont not paid off.. haha... den went home to rest...

well didnt really went out bt meet near my place... i cant believe my Vday was spent wit e young boy.. haha.. well.. he was soo cute and nice... he bake cookies and make a special drink for mi... tis is e hardship of his present he gave mi... haha... 1st time a guy cook something for mi.. lol... although he wasnt my bf... bt den he is gd catch.. haha.. u noe wat i mean??? hmmm den went home to rest.. wasnt feeling well e past few days..keke..

haiz... @ home resting suddenly i tht over alot of things... how come is nt him bt other ppl celebrating wit mi... did he went back to japan??? at least a sms or a email rite??? bt nth at all.. i stil rem last yr... he bought a ring n propose to mi... bt i sort of reject... due to some reasons.. bt nw nth is done.... am i going to wait??? is his promise being kept??? no idea... no ans... haiz... klah.. tired liao.. will update again...

yest went to daddy house.... had KFC for meals and enjoys e cocktails that he made for us... was enojoying his cocktail... and e fun with e rest... haha.. daddy also play facebook sia... and i keep perstering him to buy mi..lol.... went off quite early yo boon house for steamboat....

over @ boon house... as usual.. steamboat for dinner...and all e silly & funny lame jokes and chat... is been a long time we had a gathering... after which is majong session and e rest pokers.. as usual.. ahah.. with all e games n chat... till 12am haha.. den after is e most impt parts.. e photo session... we always come up wit lame ideas and taking pis nt stop.. haha

Yest, i dono y gt tis werid feeling asking mi to call him.... i dono whether he will be back fr japan bt jus feel he will... so i pick up e phone and call him... GUESS WHAT?? my feelings were rite... he is back in sg.. bt den no calls fr him.... so i tht of waiting a few more days to see he will contact mi??? Ans: NO.....

Sometimes i wonder whatever he say to mi isit true ant???? i really doubt guys words... haha... he say he promise to marry mi 2yrs time when he come back bt jus tis short trip.. he didnt even contact mi... gt a bad feeling something must have happen.... but watever itis... didnt affect mi much too... watever come to hand i just take it lor...keke....

@ last Projs and Reports are over... have been staying up sooo late.... and doing research like siao... @ last can take a gd rest... and enjoy my CNY which is next week.... bt den not looking forward @ all.. cos nth much to be happy abt.. e.year also e same... haha.... to be cont........

haiz.. is 2008.. ant brand new year... 2007 hasnt been a gd one for mi... have been struggling alot of things... ups and downs... hopefully 2008 is a better one bah...

starting of e yr was a busy month for mi... rushing for reports and projs... didnt sleep well... stuggling all e way... but manage to balance my life with all e hard work ongoing... keke...

2008.. i hope to live a better life.. get thru my studies... and get a good job... at e same time stay healthy and happy... keke..