haiz.. is exam... exam... so sian sia... 3 papers have gone... bt it seems i not going to score... cos i have been sick.. n didnt really study... bt hopefully can get through... haiz.. well gt nth much to update... jus faster finish exam den i can start my work liao.. haha. over e week, i have been going down to hospital seeing ah-mei.. she is really fighting very strong.. she has been in coma for 2 time nd tis time round she has woke up but she cant rem me.. i was quite sad lah.. bt e doc say maybe she in coma for soo long tats y her brain didnt work well.. she has been discharge yest according to my dao sao.. i feel very guity over wat have happen.. i dono how to face her and her dead bro... i feel soo useless & helpless which i cant do anything at all.. e.ting have to depend on dao sao.. she also has her own life.. she has been tied for 15 years liao.. remain single and looking after ah- mei.. i really cannot 4give myself... anyway thanks dao sao... u will be bless by a gd guy in future.. go search for ur future and leave mei to mi... she will leave u one day as she grow older... well... to HIM: i noe u been reading my blog.. i jus wan to sae.. give mi sometime to tink over abt our r.s.. i noe u might be e one for mi.. bt i'm nt prepare nw.. tats alot of thing happening ard mi.. n none of e prob is solve.. i noe u wan to stay by me.. bt i don wan to be selfish.. I LOVE U SOO MUCH SO I MUST LEAVE U SO THAT I WONT HURT U SOO DEEP. I RATHER HURT MYSELF AND SUFFER THE PAIN DEN TO SEE THE ONE I LOVE I LOVE IN PAIN. thanks alot... i always rem...

went to boon house... have steamboat dinner... den games.. chats... and most of all photo-taking..

My buddies.... i love u all...

Some nice & sutpid pose we took...

The Tay Family(daughter, granny,son-in-law,2 grand-children)

The Tan Family (Son, granny, daughter-in-law, 2 grand-children)

Our Famliy photo for 2007

little update of e places i went during chinese new year.. haiz 4 get to take pics.. haha...
18/2 First day of new year, actualy is stay @ home de.. cos 2nd day den go aunt house.. bt den dao sao they all keep asking mi to go over to thier house n gamble.. cos e rest of them are coming over.. haha.. den christine keep calling mi lah... end up.. went down lor.. enjoy myself and won some $$$ b4 i left.. haha.. den meet winnie and sally @ fishermanV.. went there to drink and chat lor... til ard 3 plus am den went home.. haiz.. nt very happy abt them.. drink alittle bit like siao char bo.. make soo much noise want to draw attention of e behind table... suai le...

19/2 Went out later... went to aunt house wit dad.. travel all e way to clementi.. haha.. den saw cousin & their kids lor... one by one gave mi ang pao.. haha.. den have our dinner there.. every yr is e same dish... bt den is nice.. have some chat wit cousin hubby... and also play the new tech UNO game wit the g\hubbies and kids.. all enjoying themselves... den we took a big family photo.. tis yr include new-born baby ERnest.. and sis also... after tat went to meet christine go drinking.. den went home ard 3 plus.. oh .. i have been drinking again tis few days sia.. back to the same old days.. haha

20/2 Tis is e day i been waiting for.. cos i can see my god-newphew..kor and dao sao... cos e last time i saw them is last yr CNY lah.. haha.. went there ard 3 plus cos have to study a bit b4 coming out... den sit there play wit josh and tok to kor lor.. den eat @ his home again.. den play majong wit his mon n his god sis... haha.. lost $2 only.. so stil okok... den after tat.. unlce call mi and ask mi to company him go eat supper... @ e same time pass mi ang pao.. haha.. so xin fu rite... den went home lor... haiz..


tis is joshua and mi... he soo cute rite.. he has slim down comapre to last yr.. haha

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR.... is the celebration again... but don have e mood to enjoy much cos have to study for exam.. sian sia... well yest went do kor(tim) house to eat steamboat dinner.. they a big gathering wit their frens... i feel so out lah... cos i dono anyone.. bt den i do enjoy after awhile... all of them are joker and friendly... nice knwoing know them.. after tat we play cards lor... den after we went down to chinatown walk walk.. have alot of fun with them... esp one of the guy sooo dame joker... after walking ard.. we went to eat... (supper?? breakfast?) cos is like 4 am in the morn.. haha.. den uncle came to pick mi up.. and den home sweet home lah...

dEn today.. wake up quite early.. to pack all my stuffs.. havnt gt e time to do it @ all.. soo pack & pack lor.. bt it seems i gt less rubbish liao.. haha.. den prepare for reunion dinner with my family.. tis yr jie jie is able to join us... yuppie... after dinner.. went to meet sally & chris for coffee.. have a gd time chatting wit them den went home.... :)

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY..... andy company mi go do passport.. den i hand ard @ dear shop den went to sch.. den after tat went to shi home and rest for awhile... later meet up wit andrew tong , ling & dear go bugis shop shop & eat lor.. den in e end only e 3 of us.. wondering ard... tinking where to go.. den we jus park one side n chat chat n tink @ e same time.. end up went to dragonfly... hmmm e atmosphere is nt bad bt hated e ppl there.. super no manners de lor... den we drank bucket... phew.. beer are sooooo awful sia... bt manage to finish up all my btls... den took uncle cab home.. went down to pick thomas marcus they all... jereko propose to mi.. he siao liao... he say alot of things to me.. he want to take care of mi.. & really hope i give him a chance.. i dono y ... really dono y... bt den i didnt accept @ all.. loss of words. confuse... haiz... den i quickyly go home.. was dame tired and & next day morn lesson.... haiz.... tats how i spend my V day.. sian...

yest have a great time @ sch.. was dame tired waking up sooo early to go for lect den after tat went for lunch & celebrate xue bd.. e trick was dame gd respond.. she dono a single ting tat wat we are doing.. gt her a bd cake and a bodyshop present.. everyone have some little fun and enjoying eating e cake.. after tat went for e stupid comm skills lah.. for only like 20min.. wth?????? den @ nite went to meet chris... chatted awhile den went home... haiz..........

tdy was dame tired when going to sch.. couldnt really open my dame eyes sia.. cos over e wk end didnt get to sleep @ all.. was working fr morn til nite den cont morn til nite den cont morn til nite.. haha.. bt yest when i reach home ard 2 plus i really sleep like pig lor.. was sooo tired lah.. well.. tdy gt back some result.. hmmm wasnt really happy abt it lor... i feel that i can do beta so that final yr.. i can score As again..

store mgt= assesment (A) term test (B+) nearly (A) by 1/2 mark
fashion merchandise= proj (B) quiz (A) term test (D)
Crm= proj (A) term test (D+) overall (B+)
advertising & promotion= term test (B+)..... to be cont....

hmmm overall is like 50-50 chance of scoring As.. haiz.. gpa is not tat gd liao cum nw stil don ger As no chance liao.. oh ya.. e stupid SIP thing is out.. haiz.. lect told mi all 100% self-source e retailer unless we cant get den go to them.. well.. well.. still tink of wat retailer to find leh.. must go one by one and ask for intership.. y cant they jus give us a list so we can chose....

kk.. enough of my naggggging...new year is coming.... bt too bad no no celebration cos have to study... haiz.. suai le.. wat to do... oh ya.. kor sis stil in coma sia.. i was still sad over it lah.. bt den @ e same time soo busy til i gt no time to visit her.. anyway during new year going to see her.. hopefully she is awake by that time.. k lah.. time to zzzzz

been busy with own stuffs.. welll... CNY is ard e corner but den i don feel any excitment at all cos... tis yr will be very diff for mi... no new clothes.. no new year celebrations... n it wont be a good year for mi.. although tis yr is PIG yr which is my year but beginning of e year soooo many things have happen.. watever it is.. i am used too liao... so be it...

tink i will remain to be a loner which i used to be in e past... i jus wan to be left alone.. n stay in my nutshell.. i don need love.. i don need frens.. i don need help... i don need anything.. i jus wan to be alone.. sooo.. i hope i jus die there w.o anyone knowing.. since e suffering is there for mi to bear i don wan to put anyone wit mi.... once i'm no longer here.. e.ting will be fine.... haha..haha...

as for jereko.. i'm sorry that we cant be 2gather anymore... i don wan u to suffer wit mi... thanks for e.ting u done 4 mi... i will pay u back asap... although i did like u very much.. bt i need to let go of u... it may hurt both of us.. bt time will heal.. sorry... watever things i promoise u... i will do it.. :) muacks....

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helloooooo.. havnt been updating my blog.. cos was really dame busy, sick and stress... tis past days alot of things had happened... bt i tink i stil can cope.. kor sister admited to hosptial cos she was bitten up tat FuCker and she was soo badly injure til she was in coma,,, den after she was slightly beta.. till she bled again and nw stil in coma for 3days liao.. really very sad over tis incident.. if she will to die i will nev 4give myself.. cos i cause her brother to die.. haiz.. hope e.ting will be fine.. at e same time i also hoep dao sao take care of herself.. she also tired bet work n sis...

haiz... beiginning of e year only.. so many ting has happen... maybe wat i predict really will happen... oh ya.. fri nite i gt a bad news.. he lost his job... when i heard it, i was quite sad... in my mind keep tinking alot of things... and also keep asking myself Y always mi??? what have i done to deserve such treatment.. i don wan to suffer e,ting n hold onto e burden... bt y happen to e ppl ard mi... i cant accept the fact... i really hope e.ting goes well i pray hard tat both he n she can get a job soon... as for mi i wil work hard n try to balance my sch to help in..

actually i very tired liao.. supper tired... i already fell down... bt no support @ all.. haiz.. bt nvm.. cos i wil try to stand up again myself.. watever it is.. tat is always a way to solve e prob bah... i hope soo... actually i tht of giving u studies and go out to work,,,, help out watever ting i can.. really very sad and tired,,, :0 see how bah.. after tis sem exam.. see hws e result..if didnt score well mayb stop sch bah... tats no choice,... haiz.... .... .............. ............ how ... ..... ....