haiz.... tdy was nt really a gd day for mi lor... haiz.... tis morn boy call mi and told mi he view my frenster cos soooo happen his collegue was viewing my profile cos he is my fren (marcus).. den he saw all e pic and was nt happy abt it cos i stil left gw pic inside... den we argue abt it lor... bt i didnt explain much cos i dono wat else to sae.. lol... den went to sch ard 3plus for comm skills.. wow kao dono WTH e teacher toking abt lor... doing those stupid online discussion... haiz.. after lesson went home lor... den actually gt meet boy de bt den something happen tat make my mood low moral....

qiwei mother call mi n told mi he left a sum of money for mi.. n e bank wan mi to go n clarify myself... e sum of $$ is a huge amt lor... which i was dame shock lah.... den his mom also told mi tat he left a letter for mi.... after putting down e phone.. i had a bad feeling tat his death is not accident bt is plan out well.. or else y gt $$ n letter for mi... dono y i jus burst into tears n told alex abt it.... he also shock lor.. tat qiwei gt extra saving... haha.. i really dare nt read e letter cos i scare i noe e truth n i cant take it....

actually i really very sad cos we have been very closed fren for sooo long and somehw he was attracted to mi.. bt we nev be 2gather b4 cos we draw a line tat we are pure frens... as his close fren and see him passed away ... i really cannot take it.... oh ya.. alex told mi tat bitch went to report police abt e incident... haha.. bt dono wats going onz... bt they promise mi that they wont let mi get involove cos nt my prob... i hope e.ting will turn out well...

as for mi n boy... e.ting has been settle... i told him i will give him ant chance... mayb becos i need someone to hear my sorrows bah.... i have no one to turn to liao.... alot of things has happen recently... i really cannot take it or breath.... i scare i will go into depression again..... its quite scary....
e heart beat stops ~^^~~~^^^~~~~~^^^^~~~~~~~^^^^~~~~~~^^^........................

yest after work wanted to meet chris bt den after tat nev lor.. den boy boy call mi n sae wan to meet.. den went over his fren house watch vcd den end up went over to boy house play majong.. we had a big arugement cos i wanted to end tis r.s.. he ask mi y??? i sae i tired of being trapped in a r.s cos of his long term r.s wit his ex.. she has been calling n mesing him like siao n he jus ignore it lor.. i told him tis case doesnt settle things wont work out well... den he sae he had told her don bother to contact him cos they are impossible anymore.. n he have mi now.. bt den if she cont like tis.. i don feel gd lor... we end up shouting n screaming lah.. den he don let mi home sia.. WTH lah...

in e end he ask for ant chance... he sae he need time to settle e.ting wit her.. bt can i trust him??? they been 2gather for 4 yrs n nearly get marry leh... haha... y such tings always happen to mi sia... haiz.. i reliaze he beoming more like gw bt i noe he 4ever cant replace gw in my heart...

tink he began to like mi alot.. cos of his every little things he do for mi... 1st he has stopped speeding on e road.. stop going for race in malaysia.... 2nd he rented a flat near my area where he gt a nice house to stay.. 3rd he went to buy e cute pillow i wanted to put in his car.. 4th he brought mi to new asia bar e other day.. which is a place i like very much.. 5th he bought mi a diamond ring which i rejected... 6th he make e effort to send mi home after work lately.. 7th he stop going clubbing lately too... all tis happen when i start to treat him very cold... within 2 wks he change his ways.... all becos of mi.... to a normal ger is touch...bt to mi... is orh...so....!!! haha...

really dono shld i cont or not... very sian & tired... soo many ting happen... tired @ work... tired in him... tired abt sch.. stress on sch fee... stress in family...stress in frens.. n sad over many incident... life have nev really be gd for mi tis past yrs.... wat shld i do?????????????????

up-date news.. tdy jul have a nice time @ her workplace.. manage to see someone @ her workplace.. & also sabo all her managers wit her spicy sweets.. one of her manager thomas cant take hot stufff spilt out e sweets and !@#$%^&*() at her.. n later onz eric also !@#$%^&* at her bt den enjoy e it very much... jul... y u like tat.. make ppl suffer... haha... during function gt not enough staff.. so o.one have to suffer alittle.. bt end up it was a gd ending after all e hard work. den after work jul went to meet her ex lor... went to la kopi til 3 plus am den he send her home... jul felt tat they seem like strangers liao.. e kind of feeling is very werid... and she don seem to noe him any beta anymore... haiz...............well... mayb tis is call fate bah... anyway below are some pic taken during work...do enjoy..........lolz

WE HAVE A FATE TO MEET EACH OTHER

START OFF AS FRIENDS & SOON BECOME COUPLES

YOU ENTER MY LIFE & GAVE MI HOPE AGAIN

DAYS GOES WELL AND HAPPY MOMENTS ARRIVED

BUT SOON SAD MOMENTS APPEARE

YOU START TO AVOID AS THT NTHING HAVE HAPPEN

YOU RAN AWAY & LEFT MI TO BE ALONE

YOU HURT MY HEART BY DOING THIS...

YOU LET MI FELT UNSTABLE & THINK ALOT..

YOU CAME BACK AGAIN BT DEN U GOT NO ANS..

YOU EXPECT MI TO READ UR MIND?????

IN THE END WHEN COLD WAR STARTED.. YOU START TO "GAN CHEONG"

U THINK A PERIOD TO TINK ABT IT N CONCLUDE TO ASK FOR ANT CHANCE..

DO YOU THINK IS FAIR??? DO YOU KNOW THE HURT BEGINS??

IN CONCLUDE: IF U TREASURE SOMEONE U LIKE, DON EVER CHEAT OR DON TRUST E OPP PARTY.. IF U LIKE E PERSON, U SHLD TRUST N RESPECT THEM.. & SOLVE ANY PROB OCCURED 2GATHER.. ONCE E CHANCE IS GONE THERE WILL NT BE ANT CHANCE.. WHAT IF U ARE GIVEN A 2ND CHANCE.. WILL HISTORY REPEAT??? ANS: YES...

SHLD I GIVE U ANT CHANCE???? ASK URSELF.... ANS WILL APPEARE TO YOU SOON................................... :p

yest had a gd n bad time... went to work as usual & gt make fun by my managers cum chef.. all bully mi sia.. lolz.. bt they are always like tat..im used too liao..hmm stay back OT and help out lor.. den reach home ard 12plus.. den went down to qiwei wake.. i was dame sad til i cried very badly lor.. i really cant believe he really gone.. we waited for his "gf" to come and confronted her wat happen to them... b4 she came.. someone told us tat bitch has an affair wit ant guy in her workplace & maybe qiwei noe abt it & cant take it tats y he end his life..

when tat bitch arrived.. i walked up n ask her wat did she do?? she told us his death has nothing to do wit her.. we forced her like siao den she started toking.. @ 1st she sae they had a big fight n she wanted to break up den she walk away.. den e next day she knew he is dead.. stil can tok rubbish... den we cont to force her sae cos we noe tats nt e truth... in e end she admited she had ant guy n wanted to broke off wit qiwei.. bt den they had a big fight den qiwei threathen to kill her.. bt end up nev... dono real ant lor... den came a flying chair(dono fr where sia)... den e bitch shouted wat we want.. (here come e fun part:) one of us shouted we want to beat u... bt don wan dirty our hands(use weapon) den she shouted:wan to fight come one to one lah.. don tink u are guy i scare leh.. den all e guys gfs all stand up and alex gf shouted to tat bitch: u very gd in fighting isit.. u & i one to one.. if u (bitch) lost u have to take everyone blow.. if i (alex gf) lost.. everything is settle..

she(bitch) veryy confidience she will win sia.. end up she lost.. n gt beaten by us lor...e last kick i gave her real hard to her (mei mei) den later gt police come.. bt den e.one act blur lor... nth happen n they left.. til nw i stil nt happy over it lor.. anyway we told her parents tis matter wont rest so easily.. her mom asked us hw much we want.. she can give qiwei family e.month $3500 til their children get married.. wat a joke.. tink $$$ can buy e.ting.. not a LIFE.. dono wat else to sae liao.. stil very sad over it..

btw.. tdy sales also nt very gd lor.. sian .. haiz.. want to get rid of e stocks soon bt den it seems not moving... k lah.. zzzz time... cont...

where have u been??? its been a long long time since i last heard abt u... suddenly i jus tht of u... its been 2yrs tat i last saw u... i tried my very best to get u out of my life bt somehw i cant do tat... cos deep down in my heart u always there... i dono wat to do??? how to cont?? how to survive?? how to let go?? how to accept?? is painful to have question mark all over my head...is hurtful that i cant find u.... is stressful to tink where are u???

when i chose to be wit Cxxxx, i have tried to put u aside liao...i was happy to be wit him and tht he might slowly push u aside bt den things jus happen & til nw i also dono y i n him end up... ???? after tat i wasnt living very gd... bt i manage to pick myself up n cont my path... bt i noe no matter wat happen GW always lives in mi... really felt very terrible...

jus now i heard a song which u sang to mi b4... all of a sudden memories of us jus flash across my mind... it was sooo sweet to recall bt it vanish in a split second... e shadow of u has slwoly disappearing away bt whether is it a gd thing, i dono.... i really hope to see u again... whether we can be 2gather again.. it doesnt matter anymore... i hope u stil in sg instead of japan... cos if u chose to stay there, e chance is 0%... i really hope to see u again.... have alot of things to tell u.....

anyway i will always rem e times we had 2gather n e little surprise u gave mi... thanks alot..... really miss u alot..........................

tdy went to sch... dame sian sia.. 1st lect tok abt proj liao..lolzz.. end early lor.. den went for lunch.. after tat went 2 open push cart... e crowd nt bad.... thanks to xue brother fren who bought $$48... so e sales stil nt too bad.. bt e necklaces like nt really moving sia... hope next few days will be beta.. lolz... closed shop ard 4plus lor.. den after went to meet chris for dinner... n later sally n cy join us... sit there drink n tok tok til 9plus den boy boy came to look for mi.. bt didnt tok much.. he watch tv while i serving e net.. lolz...


our push cart=accessories & candies

been working n working non-stop.. have been able to have a gd slep or even have fun.. bt den back @ work i have alot of fun wit my managers & friends.. they really cheer mi up n made mi happy when i in e BAD mood.. lol.. they are really fun... last fri... after work all of us went out for supper @ lao pa sa.. haha only 2gers n 10 guys sia.. for e 1st time i felt so fun sia... we ate alot.. fr satay to chinese food... den we went to baby face.. some of us didnt went as they are under age.. lol... so went to sea-side to sit down n chat lor.. til 4 am den went home.. was dame tired lah.... den slep til 12 pm den woke up... haha..

my good working frens always wit mi...

yest i heard from cleo that my best buddy qiwei is dead liao.. he had taken something and jump down fr his flat.. i tink becos of his gf bah.. i havnt really tok to cleo abt it.. bt i was dame sad lor.. cos e last time i saw him in sep, he was stil ok... bt den one mth later he is gone... tue i be going to his furnel although i am not allow.. cos cleo n gang scare i cant take it.. he was e next close person to mi after kor kor.. i hope he death is nt becos of gf... or else i wont let e matter rest.. his gf is a f bitch... til now i cant believe he is gone... totally lost.... he was a nice person bt y must he end up like tis....

haiz.. sch opening tis coming mon.. wat a boring time sia.... n worst is my timetable is so fuck lah... e.day start sch early n end late.. n worst is in bet gt 4hrs break... WTF lah.... dono wat to do sia... haiz.. y y y y y is mine???? hmmm i going to miss work esp e ppl there... bt e.one also starting sch.. haha... nvm.. wk end stil can see them...

as for my ah boy.... i also dono how... jus been cold to him ever since he came back fr HK... haiz.. see how bah... let time prove e.ting bah.. k lah.. time to go out... haha.. meeting Cxxxx.. update again..

This is my working place.. took some pic to rem as mayb i will leave tis place soon.. miss e place.. e ppl.. e fun... e laughter... & also e sadness....



this is e signage put up by e mgt.. quite shock to see on my 1st day bt den quite funny after reading it.. tis is to remind some idiot who always like to work in their style n create trouble to others to do dbl job..lol

felt so trouble by so many things... i might nt be able to study if my appeal is nt approve... have to wait for 2wks time den i noe.. i don wish 2 give up half way bt den if theres no option wat to do.. haiz.. have to come out to work liao lor.. having alot of prob bt den life stil have to move onz.. sometimes i wonder y always mi sia.. e.one can stil rely on someone bt i seem to always rely on myself... felt very stressful... & i nev have a proper r.s... i start to like my boy bt den things always happen n pull every r.s apart in e end... felt so tired n sian liao... really gt no comments n cant tink of anything anymore... leave e.ting n let it be bah... ......... ............. ................ .......... ....

been busy working lately non-stop haiz.. tink almost 16hrs a day bah... i also dono y i wan to tired myself... haha.. have nt been really meeting boy boy lor.. bt tink he has also abit nt happy liao...haiz.. worst is e other day i wit him den saw my 1st ex.. so qiao he n my bf is childhood fren sia.. WTF lah.. after i left to meet my fren he went to tell alot abt mi to my bf.. my bf did confront mi n ask mi isit wat he sae is true.. i admited lor.. n i told him is all in e past liao.. nw is e present n i have change alot liao.. if he mind den break lor... is ok wit mi cos tis is not e 1st time i have such r.s... after some tht he sae he will accept wat i am now..

i was dame angry den i scolded my ex.. n told him i wont wan to see him or contact him anymore lor... later he admited tat he purposly sae de cos he nt happy i wit my bf.. WTH lah.. den e day b4 boy went HK, we aruge again abt meeting up early n send him to airport.. i manage to knock off early 2 company him.. bt didnt tok much tat day as he busy entertaining his frens... when he left he didnt sae anything accept he will miss mi...lol... he went a few days & suppose 2 come back by sun bt den his hp tone is stil overseas so i didnt bother much... tue i gt him bt he nev pick n nev reply to mi til nw... i also dono wat happen jus had a bad feeling tat we wil end... e.ting seems so fast...

hmmm over e wk end went baby face wit liwen, andy & joey.. hmmm it was ok ok lah.. mayb cos after quite tired liao..lol.. den sun met dao sao (jesslyn) & kor kor @ compass pt for lunch.. had saki sushi.. it was kor treat cos dao sao bd... had a lot & was dame full... den after went over to 68 home to stay.. as usual lor.. help her look after didi & play PS2 with her n her daughter.. had lots of fun.. den later martin came over & chat til 3plus den e.one went to zzz... next day nite den went home.. was dame tired lah.. haha

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yest didnt went to hilary bd cos chris didnt go lor.. haiz.. den end up after work meet sally , cy & frens go katong lor.. we went there play board-game..a nice n relax place.. gt all sort of games sia.. we started @ 8 plus til 1am den left sia.. was quite tired liao.. bt had alot of fun.. esp when we play payday... haha keep on sabo ppl pay $$$$ n robin keep on bully by us sia.. had a great time... den uncle came to fetch us home.. long time nev see him liao.. lol... hmmm den zzz liao lor...