Tis few days alot of misunderstanding and argument wit boy... was nt really happy abt it and wanting to give up... i felt very tired to drag on and wasting his time... tat day we had a gd tok and said e.ting out... i wanted to hold back my tears bt it keep rolling down my cheek.. mayb becos i really like him and felt e pain in e way he treat mi... it seems e.ting little thing i did, he don even rem or put it into his heart.. he felt is common and like tat lor.. bt of cos to mi e.ting little things counts... so we say out wat we really wan and hw to improve tis r.s... e only sentence made mi re-consider is:

"if i'm nt serious in tis r.s, do u tink i will propose to u and tell my parents..? i did tis cos i finally found someone who can control mi and let me be happy.. bt it seems tat i let u down and hurt u soo deep and nev able to be there to protect u. my actions might nt really show u wat i mean bt i also treasure e times and things u did for mi.. i really hope for ant chance.. pls"

after hearing tis wat he say... i gave him ant chance and cont to improve in our r.s

yest was my one and only papers i had.. well did study for it bt it seems tat i done it wrong.. haiz... bt hopefully can pass lah... tis sem really lost mood to study as too many things had happened and was too stress.. met up wit my poly mates for dinner at clarke quay and den went over to rage for drinks.. was quite fun and happening.. as tis gp always full of craps and lame jokes.. haha.. (tat is lot of pics.. bt lian havnt send mi.. haiz) i going to miss them as we are going seperate for 3mths for attachment.. bt if working same area stil can meet up for lunch or dinner.. its so fast.. tat i left last sem to finsih my course.. i miss them alot.. keke..

yest after work met up wit joyce and sally.. company joyce to shop for her LV bag again.. den went to nydc for chat.. den meet sally liao den we proceed to rage lor.. went next door for dinner den back to pub.. sit there drink and sing lor.. til later part.. ah seng, kelvin they all came lor.. den play games and drink lor.. den joyce went back 1st.. den ah seng sent mi home..was dame tired sia...

tdy, woke up @ 3pm lor.. cannot believe it sia.. nobody call mi to wake up as i was so sick cum super tired.. haha.. den slack after lunch den sleep back.. haha den woke up eat again and watch tv.. den went to boy home and up load pics and blog lor.. while he is doing his stupid stuffs.. haiz.. stil considering want to cont anot... shall see how bah.. sian.. mon exam i stil havnt study.. no mood sia.. haha.. ciaoz..

Went holiday for 3days 2nights to genting.. was a wonderful and enjoyable trip for mi.. @ last i can put e.ting aside and enjoy myself.. is been a long time i am so relax..

day1, reach there ard 230pm den check in to 1st world hotel.. which is CMI lah.. haha.. den after spend e whole afternoon til dinner time shopping @ 1st world hotel and genting hotel.. den went lake view resturant to have dinner and den went casino and look look.. den went back room and slept..

day2, woke up early to check out and wen for lunch and den check in at genting hotel.. e room was dame big and of cos more like a hotel room .. haha.. den change and went start going to theme park and play.. most of e rides we play bt e Q was dame long lah.. e last one was e water splash.. we were lucky to sit e ride as it was raining when we manage to get onto e boat.. den went back room to bath and change.. den went to good friends resturant for dinner.. e food was much beta den lake view.. after tat took a stroll outside enjoy e cold brezze.. den went back to 1st world to play indoor rides and see e 4D video.. much later we went to genting casino .. it was much bigger den 1st world sia.. and stood there seeing ppl playing ... til ard 3plus am den went back room sleep.. haiz.. tml go back sg liao..is soo fast.. hw i wish longer break.. haha..

day3, woke up and check out.. den after tat went for lunch den went to 1st world to get e things i wan to buy.. manange to get my shoes and some things for my parents and frens.. den took afternoon coach back to sg... it was a long journey.. reach sg ard 9pm.. den took cab home.. i miss e holiday.. shall go again..

e.ting seems so dramatic.. i cant believe my own eyes... was @ spa wit joyce tdy... den went to cartel for dinner.. yest i left a note to jereko and say tat by tdy 12am if he can find mi.. i will give ant chance if nt e.ting come to an end... while i was having dinner, his frem sms mi & say he started searching for mi.. bt did he find mi????

i saw wen kai @ white sand.. and spoken to him for awhile den i decide to walk home and pass e fishing pond.. i sat @ there for a while and was tinking wat i shld i do??? i really confuse and lost.. one ting after other keep happening.. i really lost my mind...my brain cells.. n suddenly i felt so sick.. n was having fever.. when i started to walk back.. nev tht that i will see him.. i saw boy in front of mi... i u-turn and walk away.. dono wat to do.. bt in e end i appreare and he was soo happy. bt do i??? he tok to mi alot of thing bt as i was feeling very cold. he took mi home.. and fed mi wit med.. n pat mi to zzz. during tat period he was so sweet.. bt i dono wat i wan??

tdy, after work i went to his house.. fed his dogs and pack his room.. slept for awhile and wash his clothes.. den slack ard and tink wat i wan?? wrote some notes and left in his room.. wonder he take hw long to see?? and reply mi.. very tired.. wan to rest and get faster cure from my sick.. keke.. shall wats e conclusion..

after work went to meet up wit my two lovely gers.. went to hereen-village and had our dinner.. den went down to rage... den later shi bf came & fetch mi to dragonfly.. not too many ppl to my surprise... bt stil quite enjoy.. den in bet.. alot of thing happen.. don wish to say liao.. Anyway.. happy birthday to SHi.. my beloved fren.. see her having a proper bf liao.. happy for her.. hope she treasure.. :)

i dono wats going on recently.. jus don feel very gd and very confuse and dono wat to do???? ever since alot of ting have happen to us.. i trying to give in and put in effort.. i very envy most of frens.. as they are either marry already or have stable bf.. although there may be argument bt @ least is someone u like by ur side... as for us?? is like a love test tat we have to go thru so complicated r.s..

i learn to let go Gw for a period of time liao.. and put my heart to boy.. i dont deny tat he is a gd catch but dono jus certain things we cant slove & be honest. when things really happen den e truth will spilt out.. but i always let it be... i am nt angry bt disappointed... u always say tat i didnt do anything for u.. bt have u tht of e little thing i did.. which i nev did in my entire life wit my other ex.. i learn to control my temper and be nice.. tat too much to list wat i did?? bt tat doesnt count??? if u tink so den be it...

wat u did for mi?? is nt wat i wanted?? when u make mi sad or angry... u use $$ to pay back.. is tis wat i really wan??? have u ever asked??? do u understand mi?? hw much u noe abt mi??? i really dono whats going to happen?? u propose to mi.. n tis is e way u treat mi?? haiz...


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yESt weNt oUt wIt KoR aNd hIs FaMiLy.. wE went to LaO pA sA and have our dinner.. order alot of food sia.. den manage to see a bit of e fireworks.. nt bad... den after tat cont eating.. haha.. after e event @ marina bay.. alot of ppl came here and find food to eat.. tats tis pt of time.. when we are to finish our food.. we were ambush bt a gp of young punks..they keep looking @ us eating.. and i keep on laughing.. haha.. den after tat we walk ard.. bring e two kids to merlion.. fullerton hotel.. spore river.. and even play catching wit them.. was dame tired bt quite fun.. see them laughing and happy.. den after tat meet sally awhile to chat den went home...

yeSt after test went to meet my two buddies @ bugis saki sushi.. we went there for dinner.. den after tat took a bus down to rage.. keke.. went there to finish e btl and also sing songs... after tat left ard 12plus.. den went tamp find shi n her bf.. den chat awhile.. her bt send mi home.. hmmm nt bad looking and is 101% better than jimmy...

i learn alot abt lifestyle recently... and things tat i see n tht in my mind really show mi alot of things... well.. i will jia you to work harder and achieve my goals... as for dear.. i stil considering.. ever since alot of things have been happening to us.. mayb is a test bet us bah... i shall see hw strong is our r.s we can maintain.. keke...

i slightly happy abt my life... i gt my SIP liao... bt stil dono post to where... keke.. hmmm things have been picking up... i slightly more relax liao.. bt of cos stil have to work harder... i begin to let go gw... i noe i shld wake up fr my sleep.. tat he wont come back ever again.. i trying to treat ah boy gd.. so i can stay happy wit him... bt there are stil some things yet to be said.. one step @ a time bah...

recentyl, contact tiansong too.. it seems he is doing fine with his wife n life.. bt he always say: "as i say life can always be better".. haha.. i gt it... haha.. hmmm i also noe tat some of my pri sch fren and ite fren have been married.. haiz.. is like 2-3 yrs ago.. stil pak tok.. den suddenly all marry.. haha.. as long as u are happy wit wat u are doing.. go ahead.. once e chance slip.. no 2nd chance...