well... lately mood nt really gd.... dono y... alot of things have happen.... jus cannot take it anymore...dono i can hold on how much longer... y y y y y things must always happen on mi... one after ant.... settle one thing come ant.. y cant i jus live a happy n simple life.. y must GOD take away e.thing from one jus over nite... wat have i done to deserve such treatment... anit im a gd person who risk my life.. my time.. my sleep.. my energy.. my love... my e.ting for ppl ard mi... (family... frens.. GOD...)den y do i deserve such treatment for nth... y must it be me??? i took alot of hardship... gone thru alot of stress... gone thru a painful life... gone thru e dark side of e world... for how long.. ever since i was young... over 20years.. isnt it enough for mi.... i work sooo hard.. all my effort.. doesnt pay off anythng good in return.... i don ans much.. to have watever i wan i will have bt jus a simple peaceful life..

and finally i get to noe a truth which i have wanted to noe for almost 2ys.. C current gf... is really e ger b4 mi... n i guess y we ended must be her... i don really feel sad bt super disppointed... y must he lie to mi... i used to like him soo much gave up soo many unhappy things n be gd to him n treat him soo gd... bt is tis e thing i gain in e end???? i long time doesnt have a gd r.s liao.... all come n go like freeflow.. haha... maybe tats really my life n fate bah... wat to do.... sometimes i even wish i am dead... bt y i cant??? my time is nt up??? i need to suffer how much longer???? am i born to have such life???? wat wrong have i done????

family.... frens.... love.... money.. sch.. job... life... haiz.............. gt nth much to say.... if tats my life to be.... i have to accept lor.... wat to do... tink i wish to have depression beta... so wat also no need to be trouble.. e.day being crazy is e best... hahahahahahaha......................................................... thanks really thanks.. i must apperciate e life i have...........