haiz.. tis few days hasnt been gd for mi lor... felt soo useless.. unable to find a job.. n have to worry soo many things... see my parents e.day fight over xxxxx and make himself soo stress... my savings also left nt much liao... mayb only able to cover til june..bt wt abt my expeness n sch... haiz... really felt very lost...n tis is e 1st time i felt so miserable... e other day i met up wit jin wei... actually we agree exchage something for something.. haha end up.. he sae i crazy n scolded mi like crazy.... n he transfer mi $$... he sae he is serious in looking after mi.. n wont leave mi alone.. haha... he wan to be my bf... siao... 1st he is 2 yrs younger den mi.. 2nd i nw have sooo much prob.. 3rd.. i feel like ending my life... 4th.. i dono how to carry onz.. or which way to move onz...

yest went to wing tai interview.. hopefully i get e job... bt til nw nobody call.. i jus need watever job to support tis family y cant i get it.... send sooom any emails none reply... interview soo many no repsond.. i even scarfise my sch time to go work.... y cant i jus get it..nev felt dame lost n ?????? .. tat day didnt went home so went to wei place... nearly kill myself bt stop by him... got scolded like hell lah... well well.. i really dono lah.. see wat GOD plan for mi... i jus hope my whole family will get thru tis time.... n i promise i will earn big $$ to let thme live comfortable.. as for now... see wat i can do...

anyway thanks jin wei... although i only noe u like 1 yrs plus.. bt u are there for mi when i really depress till no wher to go... all my frens dono gooo where...tat is y i believe... nev TRUST IN ANYONE ACCEPT URSELF... NO ONE WILL HELP U.... nt even UR FRENS... FRENS ARE ONLY FOR FUN & LAUGHTER.. when trouble comes.. ALL RUN AWAY.... hahahahahahahaha......................... crapps.