haiz.. is exam... exam... so sian sia... 3 papers have gone... bt it seems i not going to score... cos i have been sick.. n didnt really study... bt hopefully can get through... haiz.. well gt nth much to update... jus faster finish exam den i can start my work liao.. haha. over e week, i have been going down to hospital seeing ah-mei.. she is really fighting very strong.. she has been in coma for 2 time nd tis time round she has woke up but she cant rem me.. i was quite sad lah.. bt e doc say maybe she in coma for soo long tats y her brain didnt work well.. she has been discharge yest according to my dao sao.. i feel very guity over wat have happen.. i dono how to face her and her dead bro... i feel soo useless & helpless which i cant do anything at all.. e.ting have to depend on dao sao.. she also has her own life.. she has been tied for 15 years liao.. remain single and looking after ah- mei.. i really cannot 4give myself... anyway thanks dao sao... u will be bless by a gd guy in future.. go search for ur future and leave mei to mi... she will leave u one day as she grow older... well... to HIM: i noe u been reading my blog.. i jus wan to sae.. give mi sometime to tink over abt our r.s.. i noe u might be e one for mi.. bt i'm nt prepare nw.. tats alot of thing happening ard mi.. n none of e prob is solve.. i noe u wan to stay by me.. bt i don wan to be selfish.. I LOVE U SOO MUCH SO I MUST LEAVE U SO THAT I WONT HURT U SOO DEEP. I RATHER HURT MYSELF AND SUFFER THE PAIN DEN TO SEE THE ONE I LOVE I LOVE IN PAIN. thanks alot... i always rem...