Yawns wake up early in e morn, haiz back to work @ last.. Chris send mi to workplace cos on e way mah cum my leg injure and stil in pain.. during our journey felt very werid cos we hardly tok @ all & kept quite a period of time. den he told mi he is moving house cos his parents divorce. haiz less chance to meet him liao.. :( we went for breakfast b4 we depart for work. dono y feeling very werid when heard tat news. after work meet boy for dinner and actually waiting for chris to finish work n meet for coffee bt was disappointed cos he nevt reply mi @ all.. gt no comments anymore.. cos is nt e 1st time...

Soooooooo sian stay @ home e whole day playing games, sercing some website.. & chat over msn.. suddenly those ppl long time nev see mi online got 2 tok to mi..lol.. dame boring stay @ home cos i injure my dame leh lah... sian.. have to hope ard e hm whenever i wan to move..lol... werid tat i tht of my dear.. haha.. wondering wat time he log off... & finally ard 6plus he call mi n sae he @ my house downstair wan to take mi go makan.. den i sae hw to go out.. my leg cant move.. guess his respond???? i come up piggy-back u go down den we go eat lor...

e 1st ting in my mind was.. are u crazy i don wan to break ur back..lol... bt he really did tat lor... lol.. we went to kopitiam to have fish soup.. yum yum.. my fav.. den we chatted near my blk.. til i sae i tired wan to go home.. ok lah.. he is nice.. jus now i ask him to send mi his pic.. bt was take ike a yr ago lah.. bt is stil ok wit mi..lol... thanks dear

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busY bUsY

been busy working tis past few days.... non stop n didnt really sleep for 2 days.. cos went home bath rest awhile den back to work lor.. so tired.. yAwns... remind mi of my past life sia.. last time almost 1 wk nev go home sia..work 20 hrs and slep @ locker 2 hrs den go back work.. lol was quite pissed of on sat @ work cos of e 2 bitches- to be wife!! so dame e troublesome sia.. ask tis ask that... den end up give a LJ face... bt den sun couple was beta.. they were nice n i gt a small hongbao fr them.. keke... after work quite late liao.. went home slep 2hrs again.. den go work...

dono hw come unable to walk properly.. my leg dame fucking pain lah... its been like tat for few days liao.. dono wat happen sia... haiz... so pain tat i demanded to go see doc sia... i cant stand properly neither can walk too... so yest i went to see e doc.. gt a big bandage... n he told mi not to wallk tis few days.. ask mi rest for 1 wk n see how.. siao.. i told him i stil gt to work lor.. e most i can take 2 days off lor.. he sae NO NO... haiz.. i don care liao lah.. if my leg tat time stil cannot walk den see how lor...

now $$ is very de impt to mi lor... bt den i noe health is more impt.. lol.. haiz dono lah... oh ya... e other day.. jereko ask mi to be his gf... i keep tinking shld i ant.. cos i stil very confuse wit my feelings lor.. i dono shld i accept him or if i accept him.. wil he jus a replacement ant... he treat mi nt bad... bt guys to mi is tooo scary liao... n sian also... i tht it over very hard... since c.... gt gf liao n no matter hw hard i try, we wont patch tings up anymore liao.. y nt give jereko a chance... bt i told him tried n see how... if cant den be frens lor.. he agree to it.. bt it seems he is more happy den i am lor.. lol... bt he poor ting lor.. cos nw i busy working n don really have time for him bt he don mind,.. cos even if jus send mi home or meet for meal only.. he is contented.. so nw my lunch time.. he wil pack food for mi.. :) bt sad to sae.. he stil don really move my heart... bt hope time wil tel e.ting bah... as for now hope i can walk again lor.. is realy painful... haiz.. sian diao..................

sMaLL gAtheRiNg

aFtEr wOrK wENt 2 mEet cLaSsmATe ( aNgeLiNg, XuE, waTi & tEcK) fOR dInnEr.. wE wEnt tO bEdOk 85.. wE oRdEr LotS oF fOoD.. gT bIg bIg OtaK, BBq chiCKen wIngs, bA ChoR mEe & STiNg RaY... e Food iS sO Yum yUm... aS wE eAT wE cHaT aLoNg e wAy... aLL e jokEs n UpdaTe sTuFf... haha.. tEcK sO pooR tIng.. kEna bULLy bY mE *& aNgeLiNe.. hE gAve uP iN e eNd.. LoL.. dEn hE wEnt oFf 2 mEet hIs fReN fOr mOvIe.. LeFt e 4 oF us.. cOnt oUr tOPic... dEn i & angeLinE sAe 4 gUts sIt neAr uS.. aLL qUITe bIuLt sIze... LoL... dEn gT one qUiTE cUte.. LoL.. WE keep LoOInG... e wOrSt iS tat tHey aRe GrEaT eAteR.... tHEy ATe dOnO hw mANy rOuNds SIa.. WesTeR fOOd, mEE, fIsh sOuP.. n COuNtLess tIme oF dRinKs.. Lol..
sAd tO saY, wE LeFt b4 thEm Lol... den wE wEn t To tAKe sOme pIcs.. eVen oNLy e 5 oF uS.. bT it wAs qUiTe fUn. lOl...

Will You Be My Valentine?

Will you be my Valentine

Will you press your lips on mine

Will you say you love me so

Say you’ll never let me go

Will you hold me close to you

Tell me that your love is true

Can you feel my heart beat fast

I know our love is here to last

Look into my eyes and see

Just how much you mean to me

Promise me you’ll always be

Mine throughout eternity

I pray that you will answer yes

I love you that I must confess

iF i cAn cOnFeSs tO hIm hW mUch i Like hIm.. iT wiLl bE gReAt.. i aLso dOnO wAt i wAntEd.. qUite COnFusE... in mY hEaRt iS aLwAys Gw.. bt iT sEeM Like hE hAs gOnE wIt e wInD fOr 2yRs pLus... donO whErE is hE.. bEEn wAitIng fOr hIm.. til i mEt tAT gUy.. tAt gUy has eNtEr pArt oF mY Life.. eVen wE haD sHorT mEmorIes.. bT e mEmorIes LivEs iN mE LiAo.. iT wiLL nEv beEn oUt oF mY mY heAd.. (y? y? y?) reCentLY wE beeN cOntACtIng aGain LOr... @ e staRt i dOn feeL aNythIng.. i tHt e feeLiNgs haS lOng gOnE LiaO.. bT dEn nW dEn i onLy nOe iS nT Lor.. e fEeLing iS sTiL tHere... aCtuaLLy i haPpy tAt i caN sEe hIm wHen i wAn... eVen he hAs a Gf Liao... i dOn mInd Lor.. aNywAy wE alsO nT 2gaTheR.. bT i nOe is wiL bE hUrtFuL... & i rEaLy gT hUrt... sOmeTimes i wOndEr y dId We brEak iN e 1st pLaCe.. i stiL dOno e aNs.. n he neV wAn tO teL mI.. bT tIs mAy mI gO sIAo LOr.. LiKe mEntally tUoTurE bY hIm.. Lol... iT tAKes tIme fOr mI 2 LeT go n StanD uP aGaIn...

e WeRid tIng is hW cOme gW is gOiNg 2 bE repLaCe bY hIm... i cAnt fIgUre Out.. lOl... In mY hEart i oNLy LOvE 5 gUys e MOst... bt onLy 2 Live mi 4EvER.. (eDmUnd/tIanSonG/gUowEi/aNdRew/chrIs)(gW/ChrIs).... h...a....h....a....

YeSt mOrn, ChrIs sEnd mI 2 hIs wOrk pLAce dEn fR tHER tOok bUs tO mY LaOpO hOme.. hMm dUrIng e jOurNey oF e sTuPuid jAm.. wE bOTh chaTtEd bT iS aLL tOkIng aBt e sTupId jAm.. wE sTuCk fOr 1hR 30 mIn.. sHld haVe tooK a bIt Of e jAM SIa.. haIZ..

aRRivEd @ LaOpO hOme aRd 10aM dEn sEE mY LittLe bF... hE iS dAme nOtti LOr.. bT cUte.. oh.. LOvE hIm... hMM sPent e whOLe dAy @ hER pLaCe.. dEn tAKe tUrN 2 LOok aFtEr e 2 kIDs.. dEn @ nITe wHEn 2 gReAt wOrLD wAIt for paxSOn fInIsh wORk.. dEn WEnt to kIm SEng pLaZa tO pLAy PooL... hMmm afTer taT wEnt hOme Lor.. sIan sIa.. hmmmm mAnage tO tAKe a rEst b4 gOiNg wOrk iN e mOrn...CoS @ nITe mArtIn cAMe To LoOk For tHeM.. haIz..

mO mOod wAs qUitE sTabLe LiaO.. AfTeR wAt haD haPpen iN e pAst wKs.. haIz. LeArn aLot of tInGs.. n haVe sUffer eNougH... dEcidEd to LEt gO of hIm LiAo.. sIncE he gT gF LiAO wAts e pT sIa.. aS LoNg hE is haPpy.. i aM haPpy LiAO... sOmeTuiMes itS gd tO sUPpoRt behind.. k.e.k.e.k.e

e WoRsT sIck i EvEr haD

yEst i was dAme daMe sIck Lor... wOkE uP eArLy iN e mOrn pRePaRiNg tO gO wOrk dEn sUddenLy vOmItEd in e tOiLeT & aLsO aLittLe gIddy... dEn tInKiNg wAn gO wOrk aNt LOr.. caLL mY mANagEr hP neV oNz Leh.. sIan LoR..

dEn wEnt tO bUstOP LoR.. wOrSt Lor.. fEeL LiKe vOmItIng aGaIn.. LoL.. sMs mY maNaGer sAe i cAnt GO wOrk LOr.. dEn wEnT hOmE rEst.. wAs rEaLLy sOoo SIck tAT mY whoLe bOdy aChE... cOnT mY Zzzz tiL mY dAd gAve mI rIce wAtEr tO dRinK.. oNe mOutH dRanK aLL sIa.. eehHh sO hOrribLe... dEn wEnt bACk tO zZz...

haIz.. wHen i wAKe uP nObOdy @ hM Lor.. wAntEd 2 eAt sOmetHiNg bt nO sTrEngtH 2 cOOk... cRawL aLL e wAy tO e KitCheNn cOok mEe.. tHt i cAN eNjOy.. bt dEn eNd uP thRoW aWay e wHoLe bOwL cOs i cAnt eAt.. e mOmeNt i put iN my mOutH, i PuKe.. LoL.. haIz... wEnt baCK tO Zzzz aGaIn.. dEn aRd 3 pLus.. wOkE uP wIt hIgh FeVer.. 42dEgRess.. haha.. wAS sHiVeriNg Like heLL LaH..

dEn wHen 2 c dOc Lor... haIz.. gT AN injEctiOn.. so sIan sIa.. aCtuaLLY sCaRE paIn tIL gT nO sTrEngTh 2 TiNk of e pAin... wEnt hOmE Zzz aGaIn.. waS beTa tIs mOrn... caN jUmp, sHout, Run ... Lol...bt dOnO y tIs iS e 1sT tiMe i feeL liKe i gOiNg tO dIe LiKe taT.. dAme f sIck Lah.. wOndEr y mY fEvEr neV bUrn mY bRaIn.. so i can LosE aLL mEMOriEs.. LoL...

17/9> wEnt 2 ChuRch As usuaL... dEn eVening IvAn(didi) & saLLy cAMe tO mEET mI LOr.. 2gAThER wIT LiwEn tOo... wE wEnt cOffee-bEan @ taMP LOr.. sIt down n ChaT.. dEn Ard 11pLus wEnt hOme.. haIz.. aFter my baTh.. cHrIs caLL LOr.. wOw kAO mAde mI gO meeT hIM Lor.. i aLso dOnO y i gO meEt hIm.. lol..


rEaLLy dOnO y sIa....................LiFe sUcks!!!

I Want You

All of my life I've dreamed

of finding someone like you

A man who gives of himself

The many ways that you do

Looking into your eye

sas we stood face to face

You softened my broken heart

Holding me in your warm embrace

I want you to need me,

the way I need you

I want you to love,

as much as I love you

You've made me feel alive again

right from the very start

Brought love into my lonely life

now to you I give my heart

Believe in what I'm saying

cherish the moment in your heart

Come to me tonight and forever

and promise we will never part

I want you to need me,

the way I need you

I want you to love me,

as much as I Love You.

I Love The Way

I love the way you love me

Regardless of what I do I know you'll never leave me

Your love will always be true

I love the way you hold me

So tight in your arms

You give me all I ever wanted

Make me feel safe from any harm

I love the way I need you

To be part of my everyday life

I love that I can call you my husband

And call myself your wife

I love to watch you sleeping

To listen to the beating of your heart

I love to wake up next to you

To my day, a perfect start

I love the special memories

We have created together

The future holds so many more

That will be cherished forever

LoSt

The Things You Do

The soft and gentle way you touch meno one else could ever doThe way you whisper in my ear. when I'm alone with youThe sigh that you make. when you think that I don't hearthe way that your heart races. whenever you hold me near.
The moment we meethow your eyes search me up and downthe way you kiss me passionately not caring if anyone is around. It's in the way you laugh when something is funny to you. your smile is so contageousand I end up smiling too.
The way your face feels on mineas you hug me oh, so tightthe way your body presses against meas you sqeeze me with everything you've got. The way your voice fills my heart, when you sing to me sweet and lowthe harmony that we have together. the kind that only true lovers know I can't describe just onethere's even more than a few it's just everything about you the way you do the things you do.

FuN FuN FuN

tAT day sAt 9/9, haViNg fOoD n FuN fAir @ chuRch... wAs QuIte eXcItEd iN heLpIng oUt iN e pErEnAkaN sTore.. haha.. aLot Of wORk tO dO bT it Was fUn.. Like tEnd uR oWn sHoP.. LoL.. aLot oF ppL cAme Lor.. iS oPen tO e pubLic tOo.. whiCh wE managE tO sELL 43,000 dOLLaRd tIckEts bet 10am tO 12pM...iT wAs fAsT Lor.. aFtEr tAT e.One uSEd CaSh LiAO...

mY sTOre wAS vERy bUsy Lor.. nOn-sTOp pAckiNg e fOOd.. haha.. hMm mAnaGe tO wALk tO OthEr sToRe tO geT sOme fOod 2... i LovE e iCe-CreAm bRownie.. yUmmy... dEciLiouS SIa.. aFtEr a hArd wOrk, finaLLy its tImE tO LeAve LiAO.. haha.. gT sOme fOod bAD fR my sTOre.. yUm yUm... & i LoVe mOst iS e LEmOn-gRaSs aYam..

afTer tAT WeNt hM tO Zzz aWhiLe dEn wHen tO mEEt LiWen @ tAMp LOr.. haD a a ChaT wIt heR.. its been yRs i LaSt sAw heR LiaO... wEnt sTaRbUcKs fOr cOffEE & chaT... dEn wEnt hOmE rOt...

10/9 aFtEr chUrch mEEt chrIs fOR LuNch Lor.. haVe a LoNg cHaT wIt hIm.. dEn LatEr wEnt tAmp fOr kPoi... cOnt tO cHat aLsO.. haha.. dOnO hw cOme sOOo mAnY tIng tO tOk 2.. dEn aRd 6pLus he sEnd mI hm.. cOs he gOiNg tO meet hIS gF... haIz...
@ hOme eAT mY own dInNer lOr... dEn zzzz bAh.. tMl stiL gT wORk...

yAwNs dAMe tIrED sIa.. yEst aFtER wOrk wEnt fInd pEggy @ wHiTe-sAnd Lor.. dEn aFtEr wEnt tO mEet ChrIs fOR dInNeR... eAT @ oUr AReA LoR... wHiLe eAtiNg hE sAe hE neV gO wOrk dEn wAn 2 C dOc Lor.. deN wE wEnt LiLy aW tAT oNe n See... hE saE hIs Leg pRob Lor.. jUs to tAke MC.. wHiCh cOst hIm $35.

aFtEr tAt wE tInKiNg oF gOiNg wHerE.. dEn i feeL LiKe dRinKiNg mAh.. so eNd uP wE wEnT fIsHeRmAN Lor.. wEnt 2 oUr uSuaL pUb...wE ordeR beEr.. and dEn haD a gd TImE.. suddenLY tAt gER caLL HiLaRy caLL hIm... dEn hE aLsO nEv aSK mI cAn aSk hEr cOme.. dEn he oWnseLf jIO hEr cOme.. wAs qUiTe pIss oFf Lor.. cOs i jUs wAn sPEnt sOmeTimE wIt hIm @ theRe.. dEn hE keep sAyInG don LiKe tAT Lah... wAt cAn i dO or sAe??? wAit fOr hEr tO cOmE dEn i gO LOr.. lOL...

fInaLLy sHe cAme down.. 1St LooK dAme f dAo Lah.. wAs nT fRiendLy @ aLL.. dEn i CAnt be bOThEr Lor.. bT sLowLy sHe iS oK LaH.. (*puKe).. wE oRdEr Red wIne Lor.. cOs ppL aCt cLaSs mAh.. wAs a bIt bOriNg cOs 2 oF thEm keEp tOkiNg.. dEn aFtEr tAT hE aSK mI tO tOk Lah... dEn i sTaRe @ hIm Lor...

mUch LatEr... (haTed tIs), HiLaRy ChaNge SeaT wIt ChRis cOs sHe cANt sTand e SmKoE smeLL fR e otheR tb.. dEn dOnO hw cOme sHe jUs Lie heR heAd oN mY sHouLdeR n stArt tOkINg tO mI.. (like i VEry cLoSe wIt hEr sIa) (*vOmIt) LoL.. wE LeFt e pLaCe aRd 12pLus baH.. He sEnd mI hOme 1St dEn sEnd hER Lor.. :)

afTer tDy i jUS feL vEry WerId Lor.. StArtIng nt tO feeL gd... dOnO oF wAt.. iS nt cOs oF tIs gEr Lah... bT ...............

busy!!!

LateLY been vEry bUsy wIT wOrk Lor.. beEn wOrkiNg nOn sTop.. sIan sIck n tIreD.. wAt tO dO.. neeD $$$ uRgEnt.. haha.. sO haVE tO wOrk wHiLe i can Lor.. @ e SamE tImE haVe beEn vEry sTrEsS in CertAin tIngs Lor.. LatELy nOe aLot oF uNknOwn tIngs.. maYb i aM curioUs sO haVE tO beAr aLL e endIng.. haIz.. bT @ LeAsT i nOe wHere i shLd i COnt tO mOvE on n nT hoLd oNtO sOmething wHich i sHLdnT...

dOnO waT haPPen tO mI.. haVe beeN vERy sTrEss in sOmewAys.. n haVe a LittLe deprEssIOn Lor..been dOiNg thIngs wHich i dOn evEn nOe.. dEn wEnt tO sEE cOnsuLtAnt.. wAs sLigHtLy bEtA aFtEr tAt LoR.. bT sOmeHw sTiL a bIt nT sTabLe.. i WaS LuckY tAt iS nT sEriOus @ aLL oR eLse i aLsO dOnO hW Liao...

beEn meEtiNg chrIs rEcEntLy Lor.. bT mOsTLy iS La KopI & onCe a fEw oNcE @ fIshErmAn.. nOthIng sPeCiaL @ aLL.. tInK iS reaLLy oVeR... sUpeR sUpEr oVer... :( haIz..............................................!!!!!!!!!!

FinaLLy eXam oVer

ohh.. finally e F exams Are ovEr... so ShiOk... bt dAme diSapPoiNtEd in Vm LoR... 25 mArkS gOnE fOr nth... hAiz... bt hoPe cAn pAss bah.. sIan sIa.. aFteR eXam... wE aLL gO eAt LunCh @ tM... dEn LatEr wEnT tO mY hOmE wAtCh VCD.. LoL... sO weRiD Lor... hMmm wAtc h 2 Vcd dEn wEnt dOwntOwn tO eAt KFC..

aFtER dInnEr heAdeD tO fIsHeRman foR dRinK.. haha.. rEm e 1st tIme wE wEnt thEre.. We haVe Lots oF fUn n dRinKing seSsiOn.. teAch tEck hw tO pLaY 5-10.. haha kEep LosIng tO mI.. so funny.. hE LiKe nt haPpy Lor.. waTevEr nO i caLL he suRe oPen de.. haha.. dEn haO aLsO ant feLLow.. tWO oF thEm dRanK e mOst.. LoL.. e rEst of e gErs wEre bUsy cHattIng aLL e wAy whiLe i hAviNg fUn wIt these 2 idiOts.. LoL... LatER weLf jOin uS.. aLso keNa trIck by mI.. kePt LosIng.. siA... sIan LAh.. 3 guys Lose tO mI.. Lol.. haVe a gReAt tIme wIt theM...

hMmm stay tiL 11pm dEn went tO mEet my ChrIs.. he CamE tO fetCh mI.. den WE gO drInK n ChaT Lor.. As uSuaL LOr... up-daTe LaTesT tIng.. gt tO nOe aLot of ting aBt him.... den wenT hM quIte Late.. wAs damE tirEd LiaO.. faLL aLSlep... :)